It has been almost two months since we left Germany and so much as happened! Upon our arrival home we had our first few doctor appointments for the baby, we heard the baby's heartbeat, saw pictures and found out that we are going to have a boy! We have painted two rooms, bought a new car and have finally crawled out of the mountain of legal and financial paperwork that had awaited us these many months away. In just a few weeks we will be moving out to West Virginia for the summer to work at Camp Sandy Cove. Followed by the birth of our first son sometime around August 4th! And then the real fun begins...
I am both excited and intimidated by my future. The future is still unknown, as most futures are. The prospects of being a mother is sometimes an overwhelming reality. To care and guide, to provide and direct the life a child in this world is no easy undertaking, that I know. Yet it is coming in my life, very soon. And I pray the Lord gives me discernment in walking out my role as a mother. As the poet William Ross Wallace once wrote:
- "Woman, how divine your mission
- Here upon our natal sod!
- Keep, oh, keep the young heart open
- Always to the breath of God!
- All true trophies of the ages
- Are from mother-love impearled;
- For the hand that rocks the cradle
- Is the hand that rules the world."
Motherhood is both a great privilege and responsibility. It is a mission to raise the next generation to love and fear God, and to love and respect others. Which goes completely against our flesh and our culture. We humans are so easily distracted, we are weak and frail. I feel that I am about to find out how weak and frail I really am. But thanks be to the strong loves in my life, I don't have to fear. The Lord gives strength in weakness, and grace in growing. I guess that is what life is really all about anyways, the prospects of motherhood just magnifies these truths.